Putting the "I" in Love

Master Guide Kirael, through the mediumship of Kahu Fred Sterling
www.kirael.com

KIRAEL:  The subject of this program is the "I", not the personal I, but the "I" of the All That Is.  The "I" that is the subject this evening is in quotes to distinguish it from the personal I of the ego, the I that is self-centered.  This "I" is oneness and can be thought of as "I" Creator Force.  The Creator is not a being of light manifest in a body.  Instead, the Creator is the "I" Light. 

You came from this "I" Light to do this journey on Earth.  When the Creator asked you to come to planet Earth, your journey involved coming out of the spirit world into the mental world, where you were given this unbelievable wisdom to plan your future or determine what you would do when you got here.

You were in spirit as part of the God Creator and when your spirit energy particle-ized, you were defined and became mental.  You fashioned a mental plan, deciding who your parents would be, and what you would do in your lifetime.  Whatever you decided you would be, a computer operator, a housewife, etc., you designed your life plan to bring you as close to accomplishing that endeavor as possible.  Do you always get it right?  No, not exactly.  Not everyone accomplishes his or her life plan.  However, whatever you are is perfect and, ultimately, exactly what you wanted to be. 

From this simple "I", you moved from spirit light to the mental body and then into the emotional body, where your love, your essence, your purity, everything that you ever wanted to be, is.  It's such a perfect space.  When you leave this Earth plane, you will go out through the emotional body, in love.  Yes, you will return into the same love you forgot in order to come here.  The "I" is in your personal I, but you lose sight of it because of the veils.

So you traveled from the spiritual, into the mental, then the emotional, and finally you came into the physical, where you rested in mommy's womb until you were born.  This is where it all started.  The day you were born, you had no fear, until you came through your mommy's womb into the light of day.  You see, while you're in mommy's womb, the body is not a big deal because you're protected and loved, but when you're born, you experience your first sense of fear, because you don't know what this thing is that's enveloping you.  "Enveloping me," you say.  "That's me body."  That's right, but when you leave this emotional energy to come into the physical, that's the end of your memory of the Creator's Love, and the physical body takes on some significance. 

Another reason you feel separated from your "I" when you're born is because you experience and hear things when you are in the womb and you remember them when you're born.  If mom and dad were smoking and drinking and doing drugs, that's what you know.  It's in your system.  You might have heard people yelling and screaming or maybe your mom and dad got into an argument about something that you didn't understand, but you knew it was not good.  When you experience this fight while you're in the womb, you don't know what they're fighting about.  All you know is, your parents are not acting in love.  Maybe you were like me medium.  He wasn't born in a hospital.  He was born in a bed, on a farm, and his mother put him down and straight away she lost him.  He was only four pounds three ounces.  Somebody threw a sheet over him and they lost him.  They had to feel around for him to find him.  So he wasn't feeling the love.   

Anyway, you came in through the spiritual, the mental and into the emotional and you knew love, and then-boom!-you learn that love is not what this whole journey's about. 

Now, let's suppose that you're going through this birth and everybody's going wild and-pop!-you're out, and your mom and dad are hugging you and telling you how much they love you, and daddy's saying things you've never heard him say, such as, "I love you.  I just love you so much."  You're taken aback by this whole journey.  You heard one thing in the womb, but you experience another when you're born.  You think, "These two people love me, yet what was that I heard in the womb?" and this is where it all begins.  You are leaning about duality.

However your journey starts, it is perfect.  Your journey is everything that you want it to be and it is always your choice as to how things turn out.  Now, you say, "That doesn't seem quite right, Master Kirael, because a wee baby doesn't really have that much choice."  You're right.  You leave it up to your mom and dad, but you chose the right mom and dad for the experience you desire.

This journey starts out in the personal I right after you're born.  As a baby, you want to know what you want to know and you don't want to hear anybody else.  "I want some of this and I want that."  The problem is, you can't communicate with words, so you cry and you cry louder and louder until your parents determine what you want.  At first, they think something's wrong.  They ask, "What's wrong with the baby?"  There's nothing wrong with you.  You're just trying to get back your language, but that doesn't happen for awhile. 

Now, this "I", this "I-ness," changes even more as it projects itself into this dimension.  When you begin to speak and form sentences and then learn to walk, etc., your "I" manifests itself further into this dimension.  When the child reaches a year old or two years old, and starts to walk and talk, and recognizes that it can actually communicate with these beings here on this Earth plane, its "I" changes.  The child is thrilled to be able to say "mama" and "dada", because up until that point, it appeared that humans were talking weird.  All the adults are talking to you, saying, "Goo goo, ga ga, blah, blah, blah," but you don't understand it.  When you get that first word, dada, or mama, or whatever, you recognize that you can talk like these people.  You pick the language up quickly and go from mama and dada to "Where are the keys to the car?"  At this point, your "I" has moved into the background. 

If you brought your "I" to the front of your being right now, you would have the same basic thoughts that you had when you were spirit, when you were "I" first.  You would experience the "I-ness" of knowing that everything is absolutely perfect.  You would always know what you're doing, because your "I" would be connected to every endeavor.  "I" is the answer to all of your questions.  You will know that whatever you ask yourself in the "I" will contain the answers, the energies that fulfill your destiny on this planet. 

In this journey, my friends, "I" is important in everything you say and do.  When you learn to speak from the "I" of the All That Is, you will speak only with positive energy.  You will love a place, or a person, or a thing.  It doesn't matter.  You will love yourself enough to know that being positive and being in love unconditionally are what this journey is all about.

The "I" was present from the day you were born and it remains until the day you leave.  You just hide it behind the veil.  Now you are going behind the veil and claiming your "I" in its fullness again, as you experience this Great Shift.  

Q:  What bodies are the personal, or ego, I and the "I" of the All That Is attached to?-and please add anything else you want to elaborate on.

KIRAEL:  The ego is not attached to any particular body.  The ego is the veil that surrounds you in your journey.  You all have the I of the ego, because you need it to hide behind.  If your ego is active in your life, that means that your "I" is not.  The "I" of the All That Is has to get behind the ego and let the ego play its game.  If you put the ego out in front of you when you are with people who can distinguish that I from the "I" of the All That Is, they will not play with you, because they know your ego's hiding the "I".  The ego is out in front of you to hide the "I", the true "I", which is beside you.  The ego will tell everybody in this room how great you are, but the "I" will tell them how "I" Am. 

The ego is powerful.  It is not a bad thing.  It's a good thing.  If you speak and act from the ego and the people you're dealing with know that it's your ego, they will give you the opportunity to remember that you are not the ego.  Unfortunately, most people don't know that you are not your ego.  They actually think that's who you are.  Ninety-eight out of a hundred people you talk to speak from their egos.  You'll have to go beyond your ego to speak from your "I".

When you speak from the ego, you are not speaking from the "I".  No "I" exists in the ego.  The ego journey is what you pronounce yourself to be.  In that state of mind, you might say, "I am the journeyer and I am rich," or whatever.  However, if you want to speak from the "I", if you are "I"-oriented, you will not be able to speak from the personal I.  You will not identify yourself in terms of your job or your wealth, etc.  Nonetheless, when you do speak from your "I", it will sound as if you're speaking from the ego, because the other person will be listening from the ego.  When you speak from your "I", you will say something like this to the other person:  "I don't understand what you're doing, but whatever you're doing is perfect."  That person is then free to go on with his ego-driven energies and you don't have to play in that game.

If you get into the ego and you speak with another ego, no one will win, my friend, trust me.  Nobody wins, nobody understands, nobody gets the energy from ego that allows you to find the truth of what's being spoken.

Q:  Self-love has become my quest in my healing journey.  I believe I have learned to love myself and am ready for a partner.  Where is my partner on this Earth plane?  I no longer want to be alone.  Can you please help me?

KIRAEL:  For you, this lifetime is about getting farther than you've gotten so far.  It means that you have to go further into the "I", into the deep part of your "I", the "I-ness" of who you are.  When the kings and queens of old were called "Your Highness," they were really trying to get to the "I-ness" of All That Is.  They had a being, a self that was masked by ego, and they were reaching for that "I", just like you have to now. 

This "I-ness" is how you will eventually dwell on and within this planet.  You will become love.   Understand the "I", and you will be in love with yourself.  When you fall in love with yourself so deeply that the "I" opens up like a flower in bloom, you will find that person you're searching for.  Everyone has this special person in his or her life right now.  In your case, he's within a fifty-mile radius.  That "I" can close, and when it opens again, he would be right there.  He will only come to you when your "I" is so fully awakened that you know that you are love, that everything about you is perfect and that you could live on a mountaintop in a cabin by yourself forever.  That's how your whole understanding of the "I" must come to you before you will meet your partner in life.  That person will come to be touched by you.

Q:  So the "I" is not about me personally, but about loving myself on a higher level?

KIRAEL:  There you go.  That's what the "I" is about.  It's not about the personal me; it's about the love of the "I".  "I" is not about me, because "me" is a concept that does not have the "I" in it.  From my perspective, the word "me" is not reflective of the "I".  I understand me and me understands you, but when I understand "I", I know that "I" am you and you are "I".  

Remember, the "I" of which I speak is the "I" of All That Is.  It's the same "I" that you were before you came into this world and became human.  You started out as light, then became spirit and then human.  You were just a little particle of light aimlessly floating in this journey of all the lights, and then a couple of energies came together, and another couple of energies came together, until one of you had a thought and became "I".  That same "I" presence is now the human I'm talking to.  "I" is absolutely perfect and "I" know what I'm saying because "I" is what I Am.  

Q:  Is this "I" our individual core essence, and does that have anything to do with our God cell?  Is it the same thing?

KIRAEL:  Core essence defines the "I", but the "I" is much more.  It is God Creator.  "I" is the God Creator in the I of you, and that is the "I" that you really are.  You are this "I" presence of God-ness and Goddess understanding.  The "I" of God Creator is here on this planet.  Look at your mate and you will see what God looks like.  Look at somebody else and that's what God looks like.  I'm not speaking about Jesus.  I'm speaking about God the Creator.  God Creator is the "I", because that's how the whole breaks itself down-into the "I-ness" of All That Is.  The "I-ness" of the All That Is is right beside you.  So, the next time you think or say, "I don't like that person," remember that you are saying that about God.  You wouldn't want to say that about God, but you would say it to its ego.  So, if you want to dislike someone, dislike his ego.  You wouldn't want to talk to the "I" that way, because the "I" will not hear you.  Nothing could be said to your "I" that would make it feel bad, because it would think, "I'm God.  I Am God.  I Am."

You are God incarnate on this planet.  Many planets are just like this Earth plane, some a little higher, some a little lower.  They have had their own shifts.  You, too, will come into this new shifting process and into a new dimension, the fourth light.  Some feel you will go to the fifth dimension or some other higher dimension.  I'm not here to negotiate whether you will go to the fifth, sixth, seventh, or even eighth dimension.  From my perspective, you will go to the fourth dimension.  You say, "Well, I'm already in the fourth."  Some of you have experienced this "I" journey on occasion in the fourth light, but you haven't sustained it.  The "I" plane is the "I" consciousness of everything.  So, take one more look at the person next to you.  That's "I".  That's God Creator right there in the flesh.

Now look away from him and then look at him again.  You will see his ego, because it is what you have pretended to be for so long in the third dimension that it is hard to avoid it.  You must come from your ego to live over here.  As you let the ego fall back inside of you so that people aren't able to see it, they'll look at you and say, "You've changed, haven't you?"  If you can keep that ego inside you, you can be more "I" every day, and that means that God Creator will be walking around here, saying, "I Love you."    

Q:  I just returned from a Goddess journey during which the "I" wanted to experience snow and the "I" created snow.  We were driving at that time and could have gone into fear, yet the "I" drove the car, so we were in a timeless space that was so filled with love.  How can I create that experience all the time?

KIRAEL:  A percentage of what you just said, in truth, was a little ego-driven, not that you wanted it to be, because you didn't.  I heard your "I" right at the end, because I heard your voice crack just a wee bit.  That was the "I".  It came to you right at the end of your statement.  When you let your "I" out and then realize that you just said something perfect, that's when you go back into ego.  It's the realization that you said something perfect that causes the ego to rear its energy.  The realization is the opportunity for the ego to say, "I experienced "I"."  Of course, that's your journey here on this dimension, to experience the ego.  When you experience "I", you will know it and you won't have to speak about it.

Your journey in the snow was powerful because you knew that the "I" was in the driver's seat, the driver's seat.  The driver was in the "I" and your "I" joined with hers and so on and so forth, until all the love came into this knowing that you would be safe. 

If you're driving through the snow and you and everyone with you know without a doubt that the "I" is safe and the "I" will get this whole journey done, you will go right through that snowstorm with no problems at all.  When the ego of somebody in that van says, "I don't feel that safe," then you must compensate for that one I.  "I" God Creator just said, "I don't feel safe."  If that is the case, then you will compensate by giving her love.  You will not say, "I love you."  Instead, you will just give your love by feeling it come out of your third eye and your heart.  You will feel it go over to that person and hug her.  She will start crying or something like that.  That's what this "I" is about-the energy of love.

The five billion-plus other "I"s on this planet haven't the slightest idea of what we're talking about, but I know what I'm saying and you know what I'm saying and that's how this whole journey spreads, from one "I" to another.  You felt the "I" and that was enough for you to spread it to each person in the car.  You had that energy within you and you let it out and everyone in the car sucked it up and got the "I" going.    

Q:  Can I get some advice on what I should know about receiving my mate into my life?

KIRAEL:  If you have to ask me that question, then you don't have everything you need in place, but you're getting better.  A mate or partner is a beautiful opportunity for the "I"s to come together and become one "I".  You will find the man within a day or two days or four days, if you love yourself a little bit more and you're willing to go up to the mountaintop and sit there as long as it takes for you to understand the meaning of this dream called life.  "I" is what you really are, in connection with the God Creator.  Somebody will walk out of the woods and into your cabin and say, "‘I', I've been looking for you."  That's just how quickly it would happen.

You must come to this one defined clarity of I Am All That Is and now I want to share my "I" with another "I".  That's how you make it all happen.  "I" is ready for you.  This man part of the "I" is already there and waiting for you.  You've let something go and you have to get it back.  You have to parcel yourself out and examine your I and your "I" and find out what this "I" is really all about.      

Everyone has an "I" partner on this Earth plane.  Your "I" partner is within your vicinity, right now as I'm speaking to you.  You have to embrace your own "I" first.  Go to the mountain and hear your "I".  You have to reach up and get ready for your "I" partner. 

Your partner will show up, because you haven't lost the faith.  You know he will come around, but you have to get your "I" clear and get yourself above all these other journeys.  Just get to the mountaintop and feel "I".  Pray to "I".  Don't beg "I", because it won't work.  Just become who you are, because the "I" that you're seeking is the "I" of Self and the Self is the eternal "I".  

"I" is the only thing that you're seeking and when you find that, you will find this person, who'll be right there before you.  He will fly from where he is to get to where you'll meet him.

Q:  I'm trying to get a connection with a lightworker friend with whom my guides have told me I should work.  I'm trying different ways to make this come to a workable relationship, but it isn't working.  Can you suggest ways I might try to better come from my "I" to make the connection work so that I can move forward in my work?

KIRAEL:  You must be in love with yourself.  When you look in the mirror and think, "God, that's just not a pretty picture; I don't look that good," you are not in touch with your "I".  If you don't love yourself enough, you can't love the other person enough to make the relationship work.
When you look in the mirror and see the beauty that you really are, you can make that relationship work.  When you get to the "I", you will have this ability to love yourself.  You will say, "I love myself and that's what I am, love.  I'm in love with me." 

When that happens, the relationship with this friend will blossom in the way you desire.

Q:  How can I weave this energy, this "I" of the Creator's Love, into my four bodies, so that I'm living it, breathing it, and walking it every day?

KIRAEL:  You all came here in the presence of God, or the God Creator, and that is what you are.  You search for your "I-ness" because you've forgotten it.  Go back to when you were about three and a half years old.  Your daddy or some male was mad with you, but you took it personally and said, "That's it, I won't do this anymore," and you cut yourself off from the "I".  You're just starting to get back to the "I" now.  If you're in the total "I", you will feel what I'm about to say to you.  You are the God Creator.  You are the Creator of light, the God-ness of All That Is.  The Goddess Light is just the feeling, the sense of that "I-ness."  The "I" is in the Goddess, and the Goddess is in the "I".  It is "I" that you have to hear.  You are absolutely perfect.  You came into this life with a plan and you got bounced around, but you stayed the course and now you're speaking to a seventh-dimensional being saying, "I am "I"."  You are "I".   If you feel that and become that, you will not have to ask the question.  You will know how to be "I".

Q:  How do we develop the "I" consciousness of a group to make it stronger, in order to create something that has never been created before on Earth? 

KIRAEL:  In a group situation, you would have to go far inside of another being and then that person would do the same thing to you and that "I-ness" would spread to each person in the group.  Say "I" in your heart and it will be in the other person's heart and reflected back to you.  You don't have to say this with your voice.  Just think, "I" is what I am, and let "I" go into the other person and then she will say the same thing to you.  She will go into your energy so tightly that you will go inside the next person's body or energy and so on and so forth and you will recognize the same beating heart each time.  The beating heart is what will take you into this "I".    

When you do this, you will feel who you are and who the other person is.  You will feel what it is like to be her and she will feel what it is like to be you.  That's what this mass consciousness feels like.  That's just the tip of the iceberg.  You can make this happen, because this is what this whole journey's about-the "I" presence. 

Q:  So, what you're saying is, go beyond our likes, our dislikes, our judgments, everything that holds us from connecting beyond the ego.  It is a four-body experience, a four-body "I-ness" that connects with the four bodies of the other people in the mass consciousness of all.

KIRAEL:  Congratulations.

Q:  I had so many different ideas about how to create the finances that I need and already one of them is now manifesting, thanks to your guidance.  Should I just go ahead and continue to put the love into all of the different aspects that I felt?

KIRAEL:  Your journey has just begun, all brand new.  Now you must go to the next step and let your "I" guide you.  If you let your "I" guide you, the people who are coming into your life right now will give you their energy and they will live their love with you and they will leave their love with you and you will make that next step.  It doesn't matter how many steps you take, you will keep taking them and you will get better and better and better. 

Your ego will try to fight you, but you won't let it.  That's your journey, my friend.  You've already got the first step, and the rest will fall into place as you connect with more of your "I" presence.  Put love in all your endeavors and watch your dreams come true.  If anything is to manifest, it will do so if you are in the "I".

Q:  How can I be more "I" and let go of my ego?

KIRAEL:  You're an essence of the Creator and you must work through something simple, but you have to know what your "I" is.  You know how beautiful you are, but you forget now and then.  Look in the mirror.  Don't go anyplace.  Don't even pick up a mirror.  Just imagine a mirror before you:  look at yourself.  You will want to say something like, "Oh, my goodness, the eyebrow is bigger than it was the last time I looked.  Oh, I've got a pockmark on my face.  I've got something on my nose."  Go past all of that and go inside of you and say, "This is the Light of God Creator."  Your body will energetically break down.  As it breaks down, you will see your light and you will understand that that is the beauty.

Your journey will get so much better.  You know what your "I" is seeking and experiencing, and it is not the ego.  Your "I" is seeking and experiencing the love that you really are.  You, like all humans, are a pattern of light particles.  

Q:  Recently, I experienced a journey during which I felt totally unveiled and into the light.  How can I maintain this feeling of love that I felt?

KIRAEL:  How can you find this love and always be this perfect species?  This journey into the "I" is how you learn to maintain that feeling.  You will discover that you are the Creator wearing a mask.  This mask is comprised of your ego and your physical body.  You need that mask to do this journey.  You have chosen to wear this mask and now you must love what you chose.  Then you can unmask your energy.  When you can show yourself to the world as you want to be seen, you'll know what this whole "I-ness" is all about. 

My friend, what you experienced was your true "I" outside of your physical body.  You can't experience the true "I" with the physical body until you know the "I" fully in all four bodies-physical, emotional, mental and spiritual.  You have to find yourself in the fullness of the "I".  That's this whole journey.  Go beyond your ego driven self, your ego-driven self.  You have to reach out beyond your ego.  You have to go further and further into the "I" until you get the "I" so woven into everything you do and say that you will be in this wonderful, magical dance of light. 

Q:  Is the "I" unconditional love?

KIRAEL:  If you want to experience unconditional love, you will have to know what the "I" is.  That does not make the "I" unconditional love, but unconditional love is the form in which you will experience your whole journey in the "I".  When you get into the "I", you will know what love is.  At first, you will only experience the "I" for brief periods, because the ego-driven body will take back its presence.  If you want to know love, you must know "I".  I'm not talking about love between you and another person.  The love I'm talking about is your love for yourself.  When you love yourself, you love the Creator, and the Creator's Love is unbounded.  You can't define it as one thing or another.  It cannot be contained.  Knowing how to live the "I" is all about love and love is who "I" Am." 

Q:  How many aspects of "I" are there?  I'm trying to distinguish between the "I Am" of the Creator and the "I Am" of the higher self.  What's the difference?

KIRAEL:  Let go of your body and go up into the next body, the emotional body, so you can experience love, just briefly.  Just say, "I experience love," and then move to the mental body and say, "I'll be right back," and go into the spirit body.  The spirit body is what your higher self is all about.  The higher self, or spirit, is comprised of the particles of your love that coalesced and agreed to band together in a physical form for the God Creator.  The higher self is the particle Light of the God Creator.  If you could leave your body and consciously experience your higher self, you could look at the wholeness of God Creator and look at your physical body and no separation whatsoever would exist.  You are God Creator.  I AM is all that you would understand.

Have you ever wondered why this word "I" is used in this particular journey?  It is because it is comprised of one line of particles, just as you are in the Light Creator's Force.  You are a line of particles that has all your aspects connected into this one "I".  The person that you are is just trying to find out what this "I" is all about.  If you could go back to the Creator's essence, you would see all these particle lines woven together.  They're all an integral part of the whole, and you're split out of that line and sent to the Earth dimension.  When you get here, you think, "Look at that.  Look at this thing above here and look at me.  My God, what a pretty thing I am, aren't I?"  You experience the personal I.  The Creator gave you this opportunity to journey separately here on this planet, but now it is time to band together and live in this "I" presence, my friend. 

Q:  Could you speak to the trust that it takes to be in that "I" love?

KIRAEL:  Join me in a brief meditation.  Open your heart and release yourself from your body.  Look at yourself.  Now trust that I'll take care of you in this next two or three minutes.  Lift your body out of this dimensional plane, out of this light, into this beautiful energy in the sky.  Come together into this one group of "I".  Weave yourselves together, but remember where your body is.  From where you are now, look back at your body and you'll see that it's all right.  Collectively move away from Earth.  Move out into the space beyond time, beyond light, and move into your God Creator's essence.  I am speaking to and from the "I" of myself.  When I speak from the "I", you hear, I hear, and "I" hear.  We hear collectively, as one.  "I" am in the Creator's Light in this moment.  This is your truth.  Each of you is the true spirit of "I".  In this journey, God Creator, we call to you to show us what we look like in the Now.  Identify with "I" because "I Am." 

Now look around you and see all the "I"s who have come from around the world.  Take another quick look at your body.  Don't get near it.  Just look at it.  Bring yourself back here.  To those of you who are experiencing the "I", don't expect to come here every day and find it.  You will have to deal with your ego, and it takes practice.

Who am "I"?  "I" am who you are, and therefore, we are "I", the total sense of everything.  One language is spoken here-it is "I".  Now make your way back to your bodies.

When you left your bodies and entered into this meditation, you weren't breathing.  How do I know this?  I know this because "I Am."  Who are you?  You are "I".  We are all participants of the great Creator and the Creator Force of Love.  Let the Love shine into this wonderful journey of magic called life.  I Am. 

Good evening.